What A Week

I have had a hard week this and last week to tell the truth been sick with a cold not my first in the recent months, I was really concerned but the doctor believes he has the mystery sickness solved. This is it I have allergies which makes me sneeze and blocks my sinus and then I get a throat infection from the clog up. Sounds simple probably is but that was the easy part of being sick the hard part was that my boyfriend did not believe me would not go into work cause I was not there then decided to unload his shit onto me like it was all my faulty. makes you think what the hell am I going crazy too. anyway that's it nothing more to say on the subject except that I have alot to think about

Shy's Thinking: Behavior Of Humanity

Shy's Thinking: Depressed

\Somethings just seek up on aperson, one minute you laughing and the next minute you are trying to figure why certain things in life hit you alot harder then others like you take things personal when in reality nothing could be futher from the truth. I believe that it is events over time that make us depressed, some walk on us, some ingnore us, others talk behind your back but know eventually it wii be heard by you. So you have all this bad shit coming at you and the only way to balance it out with good shit comeing your way too, but what if people do not want any good news to come to you unless they bring especially why would someone do that easy they wish to control your life it will start slow and then gradually build up. When your friends tell you what they think you will tell him and here is where the magic happens,. He i9s nice to every sisgle one so right of the bat, your friends were wrong about him he is the greatest, but wait here it comes, Gossip about you that your friends have siad and that boyfriend comforts you while he lets you know they do not deserve you. Well the dramatic part you tell your friends your suspious, but they do not know what you are talking about, ah but you believe the just won't addmit the truth because they are jelous of you and your boyfriend and the love you share. At last it is just you and him. Hey I am going out with my friends straighten up whats wrong you your a mess god can't you do anything right slap there will be more if this shits not cleaned up to the way I showed you! The light hits your brain and your down for the count you have no one there is nothing so why do you get up. You don't you just move on away to somewhere where you can look in the mirrror and reconize someone you once knew

Shy's Thinking: Behavior Of Humanity

Shy's Thinking:Good Deeds

People say hat individuals should do good foe one another to show good faith towards human kindness. Well I have done good deeds and I always end up hurt Most recently have been talking in kitten to cats all weekend , because people throw them away or they get wasted and do not remember,but you get the gist .Now some people are recognizing them and one I was in love went. Gezz it was hard to see her go, she snuggled with me and only me made me feel special all the cats do but I sort of made it my name sake. Oh well for one persons happiness's is another persons pain. then the other pain is the one who takes all thr glory yet wouldn't even shed any money too get them fixed, idea of changing a cat book, only if he has enough dope ,but best of all how he says he buy everything for them dillional at best, me on the other hand responsible up my ass no wounder I am always cracky never have time to do things I need done, no money and to much reponsibilities, just once it would be nice to hear no do not bother I have i, but would be a good deed and we all know many poeple do not know how to do those, Shy

Chaos

So what is this chaos everyone like I mention a lot. Well you have the home chaos the shopping chaos, the love chaos, the worst the family chaos. The one that scares us all the most is the one that we see when we look in the mirror. We all have the thoughts that scare the shit out of us, some of mine our should I end it, or can I kill without anyone knowing, but that is only the chaos of the mind. Hoe do we control such thoughts, fantasy thinking best gift God gave us we can play out all the worst demon thoughts in our head and somehow for a few seconds we feel better, do not deny it I know Shy know as things. Why do I say or write about such things easy I rather be open about my thoughts then hold them inside until they blow over until you cannot stop your actions. I find that if your honest with yourself then what can really hurt you.The worst kind of a chaos that I have to deal with is personal, I talk from the hip, which means I just say what I think at the time no matter what the person will think. My chaos is simple say mean it never act unless you know what your doing but above all love yourself', protect your family no matter if they are far or close and always be prepared for the challenge of chaos of the mind. If you feel you cannot control the thinking get help, it does not mean you are sick or crazy or anything it just means you need help to control the thought process. I do this from experience too so please take to heart what I say, hurting someone within fantasy is not harmful just a stress release, but if you hurt someone on purpose you cannot take that back and believe me no is prepared to live with that unless your a physcopath then turn yourself in you , well lets not go there nothing good will come from me calling people who kill for fun cowards, arseholes you get the picture. Just thinking

Class

Do you know that people judge yo by what you are wearing. Of course you do because everybody has been there once or twice and even maybe more. They talk about discretion among different races. Well the most description comes from everyday people by how they are dressed not their nationality is.I have on purpose walked into a place where lets say my clothes do not reflect the clientele they wish.This bothers me because the Government really push on how a person is dressed or how they talk as a guide line on how people should be treated.Every time I went into these stores not only do I receive great service, but my name goes on the special catalogue delivery. How did I accomplish this I made them think money is not an issue. I showed class. what is class you say simple being polite , yet knowing not to let them intimidate you.I will never let anyone change me me, but I sure as hell will change them. Why you may ask because every one deserves to have respect no matter what. It should not matter what you ware, where you are from, but what does matter when you walk into that store any store no matter what you are wearing, they respect you. Look at Paris Hilton spoiled to the core yet someone who has manner es works hard for their money get treated differently. It is about time Canadians and people around the road learn a little humility so they do not make the mistake the only person who one can help them.

Going Crazy

Ever feel like ripping your hair out just for the simple reason you are trying to get across a simple conversation writing or just plan talking and the other person on the other end just keeps asking the same thing over and over again I mean How the hell do they do that everyday to people and go home are all the telephone people part of a conspirsory to see the last crazy person standing. Even computers do that you type one thing who it goes completely somewhere else I am not saying I am the smartest person on the block But even I know if yoy try do something simple shouldn't"t it be simple. Hence the picture

Ever walk by and not see what is in front ofyou

People only see want they wish most anyway they do not want to see the other side of life after all they didn't create it or die they keeping silence is the same as creating the problem over analyzing is creating the problem the only thing nobody does is say except what has happen and instead of fighting of what to do by the people who have graduated or have money and wish to have a project to help their souls ask the people who made it off the street but trust me it is not easy they have to go through at least 10 different places before they can get help what they need to do is build one place for all causes check out causes on face book butterfly on the ledge I might be onto something, shy