Chaos

So what is this chaos everyone like I mention a lot. Well you have the home chaos the shopping chaos, the love chaos, the worst the family chaos. The one that scares us all the most is the one that we see when we look in the mirror. We all have the thoughts that scare the shit out of us, some of mine our should I end it, or can I kill without anyone knowing, but that is only the chaos of the mind. Hoe do we control such thoughts, fantasy thinking best gift God gave us we can play out all the worst demon thoughts in our head and somehow for a few seconds we feel better, do not deny it I know Shy know as things. Why do I say or write about such things easy I rather be open about my thoughts then hold them inside until they blow over until you cannot stop your actions. I find that if your honest with yourself then what can really hurt you.The worst kind of a chaos that I have to deal with is personal, I talk from the hip, which means I just say what I think at the time no matter what the person will think. My chaos is simple say mean it never act unless you know what your doing but above all love yourself', protect your family no matter if they are far or close and always be prepared for the challenge of chaos of the mind. If you feel you cannot control the thinking get help, it does not mean you are sick or crazy or anything it just means you need help to control the thought process. I do this from experience too so please take to heart what I say, hurting someone within fantasy is not harmful just a stress release, but if you hurt someone on purpose you cannot take that back and believe me no is prepared to live with that unless your a physcopath then turn yourself in you , well lets not go there nothing good will come from me calling people who kill for fun cowards, arseholes you get the picture. Just thinking