Shy's Thinking: Behavior Of Humanity

Shy's Thinking: Depressed

\Somethings just seek up on aperson, one minute you laughing and the next minute you are trying to figure why certain things in life hit you alot harder then others like you take things personal when in reality nothing could be futher from the truth. I believe that it is events over time that make us depressed, some walk on us, some ingnore us, others talk behind your back but know eventually it wii be heard by you. So you have all this bad shit coming at you and the only way to balance it out with good shit comeing your way too, but what if people do not want any good news to come to you unless they bring especially why would someone do that easy they wish to control your life it will start slow and then gradually build up. When your friends tell you what they think you will tell him and here is where the magic happens,. He i9s nice to every sisgle one so right of the bat, your friends were wrong about him he is the greatest, but wait here it comes, Gossip about you that your friends have siad and that boyfriend comforts you while he lets you know they do not deserve you. Well the dramatic part you tell your friends your suspious, but they do not know what you are talking about, ah but you believe the just won't addmit the truth because they are jelous of you and your boyfriend and the love you share. At last it is just you and him. Hey I am going out with my friends straighten up whats wrong you your a mess god can't you do anything right slap there will be more if this shits not cleaned up to the way I showed you! The light hits your brain and your down for the count you have no one there is nothing so why do you get up. You don't you just move on away to somewhere where you can look in the mirrror and reconize someone you once knew

Shy's Thinking: Behavior Of Humanity

Shy's Thinking:Good Deeds

People say hat individuals should do good foe one another to show good faith towards human kindness. Well I have done good deeds and I always end up hurt Most recently have been talking in kitten to cats all weekend , because people throw them away or they get wasted and do not remember,but you get the gist .Now some people are recognizing them and one I was in love went. Gezz it was hard to see her go, she snuggled with me and only me made me feel special all the cats do but I sort of made it my name sake. Oh well for one persons happiness's is another persons pain. then the other pain is the one who takes all thr glory yet wouldn't even shed any money too get them fixed, idea of changing a cat book, only if he has enough dope ,but best of all how he says he buy everything for them dillional at best, me on the other hand responsible up my ass no wounder I am always cracky never have time to do things I need done, no money and to much reponsibilities, just once it would be nice to hear no do not bother I have i, but would be a good deed and we all know many poeple do not know how to do those, Shy

Chaos

So what is this chaos everyone like I mention a lot. Well you have the home chaos the shopping chaos, the love chaos, the worst the family chaos. The one that scares us all the most is the one that we see when we look in the mirror. We all have the thoughts that scare the shit out of us, some of mine our should I end it, or can I kill without anyone knowing, but that is only the chaos of the mind. Hoe do we control such thoughts, fantasy thinking best gift God gave us we can play out all the worst demon thoughts in our head and somehow for a few seconds we feel better, do not deny it I know Shy know as things. Why do I say or write about such things easy I rather be open about my thoughts then hold them inside until they blow over until you cannot stop your actions. I find that if your honest with yourself then what can really hurt you.The worst kind of a chaos that I have to deal with is personal, I talk from the hip, which means I just say what I think at the time no matter what the person will think. My chaos is simple say mean it never act unless you know what your doing but above all love yourself', protect your family no matter if they are far or close and always be prepared for the challenge of chaos of the mind. If you feel you cannot control the thinking get help, it does not mean you are sick or crazy or anything it just means you need help to control the thought process. I do this from experience too so please take to heart what I say, hurting someone within fantasy is not harmful just a stress release, but if you hurt someone on purpose you cannot take that back and believe me no is prepared to live with that unless your a physcopath then turn yourself in you , well lets not go there nothing good will come from me calling people who kill for fun cowards, arseholes you get the picture. Just thinking