Recently I have been in a struggle between Love and Friendship. I had a friend ask me to do him a favor and I went overboard. I was wanting someone to love me back so much I screwed his relationship with his girlfriend, it was dumb I know, and I can say alot things to say as excuses but there really is not one, all I can hope for is that he can get his relationship back on track. What was I expecting you might wounder well what everybody wants someone to love them and become their soul mate, it is very stupid I wanted that kind of love since I was little. You can say that I never experience from my family or Friends so I reached out to the one person who ever made me happy, that was stupid and like I said I can only hope he can repair his relationship and in doing that screwed up I lost a friend the one friend I could talk to about anything and he never held back his opinions and always made Me think about my s choices.
I also had a friend lie to me then try to make me think I done something wrong, what the hell. She gave my phone number out to a dealer, my boyfriend answered the phone and flipped out I am already having trouble getting him out of my life this is only going to make it more difficult you would think that he would leave on the fact that are relationship is not really a relationship , but more of two people who are together under one roof. Then again I pay for everything why would he want to leave. I am so tired of the same argument over and over plus in my own home he basically runs the show my last attempt to get him to leave threats came out of his mouth the same ones I heard from my last husband common law any way Am I Worried bet your sweet ass but there are alot of people who wish he would. So life , death, friendship, love all mixed up in one mind my life.
