Standstill

My life seems to have stood still for some time, you know when you want to do everything but nothing gets done.If I was a record skipping someone could just hip check me and move me forward, but there is no one like that.I have to get it going but maybe it is who is around me not that I can't get started just do not want make a fool of myself or be judged he always tells me what I do wrong but never what I do right, yet i basically run the bills and food. I mean he puts me down if I spend money on myself my money. what will I do I need a purpose in my life I used to with my cats and adoption and my dog but that's all done now what?? Everything is getting on my nerves I feel I am being streched to my limits in my mind and I am going to burst cabin fever maybe or just tired of the same thing everyday live with someone who juges me and fell alone anyways cannot even enter my kitchen he takes over does not like my cooking well maybe I will take control of food that I eat maybe I can control that. misws you mom